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Saturday, April 10, 2010

There are no words

I don't even know how to start this post. I'm lying here in the hospital emptier than I've ever been before. (please forgive any mispellings and grammatical errors, I am on pain meds right now and no sleep)
On Friday morning I went to the dr for my routine 2 week checkup and we did not hear a heartbeat, after an ultrasound with a specialist we were sent to the hospital for an induction. My sweet little baby boy was born last night at 1153pm. He weighed 2.2 lbs and was 14 inches long. He was absolutely perfect, except he was not crying or moving or wanting to nurse like he was supposed to. The hardest thing that I've ever had to do was hand over my precious baby boy to the nurse to take for an autopsy knowing that I would never see him or hold him here on earth again. It's so hard for me to watch my husband and see how badly he's hurting. I'm hurting too, but its different when you watch your strong husband lose his baby boy, his namesake. We're both so thankful for the time that we had him to hold and to love on. We're so thankful for the friends and family who've shown their support and offered up prayers. We're thankful for the pictures that we have of our sweet baby boy and the little momentos that hospital has given to us. We're thankful for the wonderful nurses and doctors that have helped us through this tragedy. I thank God for the blessing that he placed in my life for such a short time.

23 comments:

Jojo said...

Dear Robin, My words are of little comfort but please know that you, your husband and your precious baby boy will be in my prayers in the days and weeks to come. I am so sorry for your loss.

Jojo

Linda said...

Dear Robin. I am so sorry to read of your loss. I know that comfort can only come from our Lord and I hope you feel his presence in the next days, weeks and months. You, your husband, baby and family are in my prayers.

Linda

Ann J said...

No words can express the sadness I felt reading this post Robin. My deepest condolences go to you and your family at this very difficult time, may you all have the faith & strength to carry you through the days ahead. Ann J

Paula said...

Oh Robin! I'm so sorry...my heart is just aching for you. As I'm writing this my eyes are filling up with tears. Please know that I'm praying for you and your family, may God bless you with strength and comfort. Hang on to each other and don't let go.
big hugs,
paula

Cheryl said...

Robin, this is the first time I have ever visited your blog. The love of Jesus in my heart goes out to you. May you and your husband be covered by His grace in the days to come to help you through this hurt....

Colleen - the AmAzINg Mrs. B said...

I am so very sorry...
prayers to you and your sweet family

Leslie said...

He was so beautiful! We do not and probably will never understand why this happened. I hurt so badly for you and Eric. I can't imagine what your going through, but remember I'm here. I may not always be the best sister, but I love you so much and I hate that you have to suffer like this.

Wish I could just jump in my car and run to your house and be with you. But you know me I would never, make it back to that big city on my own, I have nightmares of that traffic.

I am praying so much that God will ease the pain in your hearts! I love you and miss you. Call anytime you need to talk or want someone to cry with!

Love ya,
Leslie

Joyce said...

Robin I am so sad to read your post today. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family at this difficult time.
Joyce

Kathy said...

Sweet Robin....
You and your loved ones are being lifted up to the Father this day.
I know your loss...
Years ago we experienced the same .
I know God will heal your saddness...in time.
It's okay to feel empty , sad, and the whole gammit of emotions.
You are loved sweet girl.
xoxo~Kathy @
Sweet Up-North Mornings...

Rose Haven said...

We're so sorry to hear of the loss of your baby boy. How sad. We will be praying for you and hubby.

~Blessings,
Jan & Tom

Victoria said...

I am just so very sad for your loss. Please know that you're in alot of thoughts and prayers. Heaven just got a new angel.

Sue said...

Dear Robin....so very sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this difficult time...We all wondered why no one heard from you after the tea. You just never imagine that anyting like this could happen.
Sue

Cathy said...

I am so sorry! I will be praying for you all!

God bless you!
Cathy

Cottage Rose said...

Dear Sweet Robin;; Words seem to fail me now,,, but please know I will be Praying for you and your family during this heart wrenching time... I too lost a daughter while she was 3 months pregnant,,,, God Bless you both....

Big Hugs;
Alaura

aimee said...

praying for you and your husband. what a sweet gift the Lord blessed you both with. so little and yet such a blessing to you both, and your faith in Him so great.
blessings,
aimee

Gary and Elizabeth~ said...

Hi Robin,
I found you through Paula, and wanted you to know, how very sorry I am for your loss and that I will Keep your and your husband in my thoughts and prayers. I am sending you a very big hug!.
Elizabeth

A Cottage Muse said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Loving prayers to you and your family.

Chatty Crone said...

Well, I don't have much to add other than I am so sorry and I will so be praying for you and your family.

Sandie

Nancy M. said...

I am so sorry about your son! I will keep you and your family in my prayers!

Amy said...

Robin, I don't know what to say. My heart is breaking for you and your husband, and your entire family. What an incredible, devestating loss. I will keep you in my prayers. I know from experience how hard it is to lose a baby and not know why. God bless.

Mari said...

I am so sorry for you all. I know nothing will eas of your pain, but I am thinking about you and your family.
Big hug from Norway :-)

Miss Gracie's House said...

Oh Robin,
I am so very sorry...i know of the numb heart and oh so empty arms...it is truly heartbreaking...my dd is also going through this right now...know that there is ONE who knows every tear and is able to heal the brokenhearted. He is good and faithful...cling to this.
rene'

Mbini Kutta-Mathye said...

HI Robin,

My very first visit to your blog. May God give you and your family all the comfort you need during this time.