Fonville Farm

I hate leaving home and coming back to work. It always makes me so sad. And right now I feel so alone anyway, I have this strange way of alienating everyone around me without meaning to. So maybe its a good thing that I'm here at work and not at home. Sometimes I just feel helpless and have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing. I just wish that I knew what was right for me to do, no matter what I do people are not going to be happy. To make myself fully happy, others are not, to make the others happy then I'm not. Dear Lord what do I do?